September 13, 2019 Dear Darkened Rose, I still have some unpacking to do. Laundry has long been unloaded and is now in regular cleaning cycles. Although, my brain—on the other hand—has not had the same luxury as my laundry. Searching for my newly reclaimed routine has taken a bit longer than I would have liked.… Read More "4.7 – It’ll rain a sunny day"
Category: Stage 4
4.6 – Addicted to Chaos
June 20, 2019 Dear Darkened Rose, Over the past month, I have had the pleasure of being employed to watch Mr. Ian Blayne. Can you believe he’s a decade old, now? I have found so much enjoyment in this past month with being able to visit with the people I care about. Although, I can… Read More "4.6 – Addicted to Chaos"
4.5 – Beating a Dead Horse Named Depression
December 20, 2018 Dear Darkened Rose, I have been trying to keep my head down lately, but coming here to write to you is really the antithesis of that, isn't it? I can somewhat form this sense of linear progression here, and I really need that at times. My mind often views my life as… Read More "4.5 – Beating a Dead Horse Named Depression"
4.4 – Through My Family, I’ve survived.
September 22, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I am visiting this stage again because I cannot pay attention to anything else. In the past three months, there have been scenarios left and right that heavily pulsated with sadness. I listen to my thoughts and to everyone's comments as they were parrotted at me. All of which sound similar… Read More "4.4 – Through My Family, I’ve survived."
4.3 – Lost and Purposeless
March 10, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I have so many things I keep focusing on lately. It’s created a large area for goals and growth, but not without the pitfall of lack of motivation. Depression is the worst. In January, I was—admittedly—jobless. I was saturated in my overwhelming need to get back on the money-making… Read More "4.3 – Lost and Purposeless"
4.2 – I Am Supported
January 7, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, It’s been awhile since I last wrote you; call it a holiday hiatus. I have been lingering in my exhaustion. I now have the time to slow down and reset. Last year, I spent the majority of my time feeling stuck and tired. I seldom found the motivation to… Read More "4.2 – I Am Supported"
4.1 – Humidity, Desert, Flood.
May 31, 2015 Dear Darkened Rose, I'm going to ramble off like a journal entry for a bit. Today, I need to express that I am quite achy and struggling a bit. Happy belated Mother's Day, on this last day of May (I promised you a second letter, so here it is). I increased my… Read More "4.1 – Humidity, Desert, Flood."
