June 20, 2019 Dear Darkened Rose, Over the past month, I have had the pleasure of being employed to watch Mr. Ian Blayne. Can you believe he’s a decade old, now? I have found so much enjoyment in this past month with being able to visit with the people I care about. Although, I can… Read More "4.6 – Addicted to Chaos"
Category: Stage 4

4.5 – Beating a Dead Horse Named Depression
December 20, 2018 Dear Darkened Rose, I have been trying to keep my head down lately, but coming here to write to you is really the antithesis of that, isn't it? I can somewhat form this sense of linear progression here, and I really need that at times. My mind often views my life as… Read More "4.5 – Beating a Dead Horse Named Depression"

4.4 – Through My Family, I’ve survived.
September 22, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I am visiting this stage again because I cannot pay attention to anything else. In the past three months, there have been scenarios left and right that heavily pulsated with sadness. I listen to my thoughts and to everyone's comments as they were parrotted at me. All of which sound similar… Read More "4.4 – Through My Family, I’ve survived."

4.3 – Lost and Purposeless
March 10, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I have so many things I keep focusing on lately. It’s created a large area for goals and growth, but not without the pitfall of lack of motivation. Depression is the worst. In January, I was—admittedly—jobless. I was saturated in my overwhelming need to get back on the money-making… Read More "4.3 – Lost and Purposeless"

4.2 – I Am Supported
January 7, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, It’s been awhile since I last wrote you; call it a holiday hiatus. I have been lingering in my exhaustion. I now have the time to slow down and reset. Last year, I spent the majority of my time feeling stuck and tired. I seldom found the motivation to… Read More "4.2 – I Am Supported"

4.1 – Humidity, Desert, Flood.
May 31, 2015 Dear Darkened Rose, I'm going to ramble off like a journal entry for a bit. Today, I need to express that I am quite achy and struggling a bit. Happy belated Mother's Day, on this last day of May (I promised you a second letter, so here it is). I increased my… Read More "4.1 – Humidity, Desert, Flood."