May 11, 2017 Dear Darkened Rose, There was a lot that I wanted to get across in my last letter. I realize now that I was not the most gentle in doing so. I neglected to make a few solid points. Your love for me was unique and remains unsurpassed. Duh. I often want to… Read More "5.1 – Smile A Little Smile For Me, Rose Marie"
April 13, 2017 Dear Darkened Rose, When referencing you, people often make note of how great and loving of a mother you were to the three of us. These people are also the ones who are quasi-unaware of the depths of your addictions. I smile in agreement to reciprocate comfort to people who need this… Read More "2.4 – Conclusion to my Illusion"
January 17, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, About mid-October I found this seed that I wanted to plant around the time of my birthday. It is a seed of sobriety. I decided to set this to be a goal of at least six months to start the year 2017 as healthily as possible. I went to the… Read More "2.3 – No Alcohol Beyond This Point"
September 22, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I am visiting this stage again because I cannot pay attention to anything else. In the past three months, there have been scenarios left and right that heavily pulsated with sadness. I listen to my thoughts and to everyone's comments as they were parrotted at me. All of which sound similar… Read More "4.4 – Through My Family, I’ve survived."
June 8, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I believe this will take me a while to write, so I'm sorry for the delay. I need to talk to you about the Tiger thing again. So yes, it was just a single event happening a long time ago (deduced that it was the summer of 1997). It… Read More "2.2 – Junior"
April 25, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, April has been exhausting, but I know I would do it all over again if it meant meeting the newest member of the family again. Our Bowie Frost was born very early yesterday morning! In my seldom reached alone time, I keep coming back to this idea I have… Read More "2.1 – Bring May Flowers"
March 10, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, I have so many things I keep focusing on lately. It’s created a large area for goals and growth, but not without the pitfall of lack of motivation. Depression is the worst. In January, I was—admittedly—jobless. I was saturated in my overwhelming need to get back on the money-making… Read More "4.3 – Lost and Purposeless"
January 7, 2016 Dear Darkened Rose, It’s been awhile since I last wrote you; call it a holiday hiatus. I have been lingering in my exhaustion. I now have the time to slow down and reset. Last year, I spent the majority of my time feeling stuck and tired. I seldom found the motivation to… Read More "4.2 – I Am Supported"
September 28, 2015 Dear Darkened Rose, I started making this letter the ending of a stage, because I have felt stuck here. I have been anxious with my voice in the letters thus far. These letters have grown no further than the thoughtlessness conceit of my day-to-day stories. The majority of the time I have been… Read More "1.8 – Hummmdrum Homes"